Jason C. Allen

Faith like a child.

2008-10-27T00:29:00.000-07:00

Faith like a child.
Dear God,
Surround me as I speak,
The bridges that I walk across are weak
Frustrations fill the void that I can't solely bare

Dear God,
Don't let me fall apart
You've held me close to you
I have turned away and searched for answers
I can't understand

They say that I can move the mountains
And send them falling to the sea
They say that I can walk on water
If I would follow and believe
With Faith Like a Child

Sometimes,
When I feel miles away
And my eyes can't see your face
I wonder if I've grown to lose
The recklessness I walked in light of you

They say that I can move the mountains
And send them crashing to the sea
They say that I can walk on water
If I would follow and believe
With Faith Like a Child

They say that love can heal the broken
They say that hope can make you see
They say that faith can find a Savior
If you would follow and believe
With Faith Like a Child

What an old song,but I still love it.That's Jars of Clay if you were wondering,but just read it,so many of us have forgotten that faith,including myself.I want that so badly,and I'm working on it.I want to be so in love with Jesus Christ that I don't care,just like a child.I want to be so in awe of Him it's ridiculous,I long to worship uncontrollably like I used to,I really miss that.Does anyone else remember that faith?I know I do,and I'll do everything in my power to get it back.God is so much bigger than all of us,and we all know this,then why is it we lose faith so easily?I'll never understand it,I hate the fact that I've lost so much faith in my Heavenly Father.This is going to change,I'm going to stop worrying so much about every single little thing.No car,crap job,still not in college.Oh well,big deal.My God is enough,end of story.I'm so ready to run back to that faith I once had,and it starts now.I encourage you to do the same,don't worry so much,God has us in his hands.Does anyone remember that song we used to sing in children's church?"He's got the whole world in His hands?"It's such a silly sounding song,but it has so much power and truth in it it's ridiculous.That song still means so much to me.Go ahead,make fun.I could care less.I'm making this change,and it starts now.

Matthew 18:2-4

2.And calling to him a child,he put him in the midst of them3.and said,"Truly,I say to you,unless you turn and become like children,you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.4.Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Life update,I guess.

2008-10-24T10:53:00.001-07:00

It seems like I haven't posted on this little dittle in a hot minute,so why not?Well,lately I've learned how to give every situation I face up to God,and I've seen some amazing outcomes because of it.I got myself a job at my local Winn Dixie store,and yeah,point blank it's a job.That's about it,I really don't want to be working here for the rest of my life,and I'm sure i won't.College next fall?Yes,let's make this happen Jason.Also,I've fallen in love with my Lord and Savior all over again,amazement.Yes.Oh yeah,I met someone hahaha,her name's Sarah.She's pretty great and pretty pretty.The passion she has for Jesus Christ astounds me,so I think this is a crush worth going after,ya feel me?Word.Live the life my friends.

<3

I'm home,so here's days 2-3.

2008-09-25T20:02:00.000-07:00

Day 2 consisted of alot of things,hanging out with Billy,Elizabeth,Miguale(I hope i spelled that right),and little Brandon.Coolest baby in the world.All I know is,when Billy,Elizabeth,Della,and myself get together,well,you wouldn't understand.The stupidest things come out of our mouths,and we laugh histarically the entire time.For instance,Billy had indegestion,so he decided to drink a cup of milk.Well,i used my "old lady voice" and simply said,"better drink your milk!"Next thing I know,milk is spewed everywhere,and of course we're all laughing harder than ever.Good times man,good times.Later on,me and Miguale walked to the gas station to get him some cigarettes.Crack head city,I don't even get through the door and some guy offers me oxycodones.COOOOOOOOOOL.Not really,but whatever.Day 3 was my favorite,I got to see Mandie.I didn't think I was going to get to see her at all,but I did,and I had an amazing time.Alabama girls have nothing for me at all,and I'll stand by that statement until I'm proven wrong in a huge way.A part of me is glad to be home,but of course another part of me wants to go back and never leave,obviously.I'll be back for another visit soon enough.I don't know how to explain everything,all I know is I can't help how I feel.I don't know what else to say,but here you go.Thanks for reading.

Arkansas day1.....

2008-09-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

We finally got here at like,7:30 or so.Goodness,I didn't think that we were going to make it,for a number of reasons.So many stops for the baby,which wasn't a bother at all.He's such a beautiful baby,for real.BUT,the big reason is because my grandmother CANNOT drive at ALL.First there was the whole thing with her almost running into an 18 wheeler,the u turn on an on ramp,yeah.That really happened,and a million sudden lane changes.Oh yeah,did I mention that we were driving a U-Haul?We did make it though,thank God.I seriously thought we were going to die.Listening to Billy get mad and cuss alot made me giggle though,I couldn't help it.We saw this guy truckin' it on a bike with his long permed hair flowing in the wind.This should be interesting.Also,Elizabeth informed me that there's a guy in her apartment complex that walks his cat with a leash.I can't wait to see this in real life,because honestly,a mental picture just isn't enough,I have got to see this.We're in Redfield,AR at the moment.BOOORRRRRRIIIINNNNNNGGGGGG.......ZZZZZZZZZ.Nah,hanging out with family is cool,but this town is so ridiculous.I couldn't live here.I'll post more later on.

Untitled

2008-09-19T18:47:00.001-07:00

This song puts me in the best mood ever.I absolutely love Sigur Ros.The weather is getting colder,I'm so stoked on it too.

End.

<3

SIGH

2008-09-17T10:16:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,i feel like this:

And other times,like this:

The internet makes me lol.I love watching people get so caught up in crap that doesn't matter so much.It's the freakin' internet people,not real life.Oh well.

<3

The Prosperity Gospel.....

2008-09-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

Matthew 6:25-34
25.Therefore I tell you,do not be anxious about your life,what you will eat or what you will drink,nor about your body,what you will put on.Is not life more than food,and the body more than clothing?26.Look at the birds of the air:they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns,and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.Are you not of more value than they?27.And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?28.And why are you anxious about clothing?Consider the lillies of the field,how they grow:they neither toil nor spin,29.yet I tell you,even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.30.But if God so clothes the grass of the field,which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown in the oven,will He not much more clothe you,O you of little faith?31.Therefore do not be anxious,saying,"What shall we eat?" or "What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?"32.For the Gentiles seek after all these things,and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.33.But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness,and all these things will be added to you.34.Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow,for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

LOLZZZZ

2008-09-05T10:46:00.000-07:00

Wow,I'm really bored.

2008-09-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie.
7. Repost!

1.using playlist "in the name of Jesus"

OPENING CREDITS:
Ready to Love-Spur 58

WAKING UP:
I'm the Bad Guy-MxPx

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL:
Far Far Away-Five Iron Frenzy

FALLING IN LOVE:
Window Seats and Last Wishes-Cool Hand Luke

FIGHT SONG:
Dodgin' Bullets-Dodgin' Bullets

BREAKING UP:
Bond Servant-Seventh Star

PROM:
GSF-MxPx

LIFE:
Dead End-Shockwave

MENTAL BREAKDOWN:
Blind-Flatfoot 56

DRIVING:
Struggle-No Innocent Victim

FLASHBACK:
Orange Spider-mewithoutYou

GETTING BACK TOGETHER:
Enslaved-The Working Title

WEDDING:
Bobby and Susie-Officer Negative

BIRTH OF CHILD:
Heaven and Hell-Jesus Wept

FINAL BATTLE:
In the Face of Death-Figure Four

DEATH SCENE:
A Hymn Of Praise-A Plea for Purging

FUNERAL SONG:
The Ultimate Measures of a Man-In Due Time

2.using the playlist "indie/emo/experimental"

OPENING CREDITS:
Eriatarka-The Mars Volta

WAKING UP:
Superheroes of BMX-Mogwai

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL:
Burning-Fugazi

FALLING IN LOVE:
One-Sunny Day Real Estate

FIGHT SONG:
Bad Diary Days-Pedro the Lion

BREAKING UP:
Blum Blum Bambalo-Sigur Ros

PROM:
Theme-Rites of Spring

LIFE:
Shoplifters of the World-The Smiths

MENTAL BREAKDOWN:
Lowercase West Thomas-The Get Up Kids

DRIVING:
Make me a Chevy-The Promise Ring

FLASHBACK:
Alpha Centauri-At the Drive-In

GETTING BACK TOGETHER:
Prove Yourself-Radiohead

WEDDING:
Lie and Wait-Quicksand

BIRTH OF CHILD:
We Are the Company we Keep-Fordirelifesake

FINAL BATTLE:
Sparks-Coldplay

DEATH SCENE:
With Tired Eyes,Tired Minds,Tired Souls,We Slept-Explosions In The Sky

FUNERAL SONG:
Hear You Me-Jimmy Eat World

3.using the playlist "pop punk rules."

OPENING CREDITS:
Sudan-Crime In Stereo

WAKING UP:
Reset-Set Your Goals

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL:
Wendy-Descendents

FALLING IN LOVE:
Ebb and Flow-Shook Ones

FIGHT SONG:
Jukebox Breakdown-Saves The Day

BREAKING UP:
Bringin' it Backwards-Lifetime

PROM:
Q-Cartel

LIFE:
Doubt Full-New Found Glory

MENTAL BREAKDOWN:
Thin Line-Dag Nasty

DRIVING:
Two For Flinching-Kid Dynamite

FLASHBACK:
Misunderstanding-MxPx

GETTING BACK TOGETHER:
Force Field-H2O

WEDDING:
Boring-Blink 182

BIRTH OF CHILD:
Never Met the Gooch-Kid Dynamite

FINAL BATTLE:
Mass Nerder-Descendents

DEATH SCENE:
Diseased-Saves The Day

FUNERAL SONG:
Idle Kids-Inquisition

4.using the playlist "ska/punk"

OPENING CREDITS:
If You Loved Me-The Toasters

WAKING UP:
Soliditary-Five Iron Frenzy

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL:
I've Pursued Nothing-The Tossers

FALLING IN LOVE:
Call it Thrashing-Hot Water Music

FIGHT SONG:
This One Goes Out To......-Streetlight Manifesto

BREAKING UP:
Live For Better Days-Ignite

PROM:
(Dawning Of)A New Era-The Specials

LIFE:
3rd Man In-Dropkick Murphys

MENTAL BREAKDOWN:
Deuces-Flatfoot 56

DRIVING:
Groovy Times-The Clash

FLASHBACK:
Trust Lips Through Your Hands-CIV

GETTING BACK TOGETHER:
A Call To Arms-Squad 5-0

WEDDING:
Been Selling Out-One 21

BIRTH OF CHILD:
Rush Hour on Skid Row-Headnoise

FINAL BATTLE:
We Shall Overcome-Toots and the Maytals

DEATH SCENE:
A Place Called Home-Ignite

FUNERAL SONG:
Forever-Dropkick Murphys

5.itunes in general

OPENING CREDITS:
1:19-Saves The Day

WAKING UP:
Settle For Nothing-Rage Against the Machine

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL:
Rocky Road to Dublin-Dropkick Murphys

FALLING IN LOVE:
Fixation-Crowbar

FIGHT SONG:
Self Preservation-Modern Life is War

BREAKING UP:
Dying Will be the Death of Me-Cephalic Carnage

PROM:
Airport,Monday Morning-Lifetime

LIFE:
Back and to the Left-Texas Is The Reason

MENTAL BREAKDOWN:
Plauges-Converge

DRIVING:
Masquerade-Life Long Tragedy

FLASHBACK:
Iron Age-Iron Age

GETTING BACK TOGETHER:
Operation Ground And Pound-Dragonforce

WEDDING:
So It Goes-Hollywood

BIRTH OF CHILD:
Inni Mer Syngur Vitleysingur-Sigur Ros

FINAL BATTLE:
Innocence Lost-Strongarm

DEATH SCENE:
Margaret on the Guilotine-Morrissey

FUNERAL SONG:
Bad Town-Operation Ivy

Summer's almost over.

2008-09-05T06:03:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy about that too,i wish Fall would hurry up and get here.Coffee and hoodies 24/7,that's what I'm ready for.Cold weather puts me in the best moods,it never fails.

"I do not exist,"
we faithfully insist
sailing in our separate ships,
and in each tiny caravel-
tiring of trying, there's a necessary dying
like the horseshoe crab in its proper season sheds its shell
such distance from our friends,
like a scratch across a lens,
made everything look wrong from anywhere we stood
and our paper blew away before we'd left the bay
so half-blind we wrote these songs on sheets of salty wood

you caught me making eyes at the other boatmen's wives
and heard me laughing louder at the jokes told by their daughters
I'd set my course for land,
but you well understand
it takes a steady hand to navigate adulturous waters
the propeller's spinning blades held acquaintance with the waves
as there's mistakes I've made no rowing could outrun
the cloth low on the mast like to say I've got no past
but I'm nonetheless the librarian and secretary's son
with tarnish on my brass and mildew on my glass
I'd never want someone so crass as to want someone like me
but a few leagues off the shore, I bit a flashing lure
and I assure you, it was not what it expected it to be!
I still taste its kiss, that dull hook in my lip
is a memory as useless as a rod without a reel
to an anchor-ever-dropped-seasick-yet-still-docked
captain spotted napping with his first mate at the wheel
floating forgetfully along, with no need to be strong
we keep our confessions long and when we pray we keep it short
I drank a thimble full of fire and I'm not ever going back

Oh, my God!

"I do not exist," we faithfully insist
while watching sink the heavy ship of everything we knew
if ever you come near I'll hold up high a mirror
Lord, I could never show you anything as beautiful as you

<3

Question to those who read my blog:

2008-09-04T16:20:00.000-07:00

How do i add friends on here?

This pain,it's so unreal.

2008-09-04T15:06:00.000-07:00

Too much,too deep.I'm stuck,I'm lost.Lord God,guide me.I'm scared to death,I'm so nervous.

I miss you dearly.........

<3

Some nice pictures i found.

2008-09-02T18:32:00.000-07:00

So,I typed in "The Great Depression" on Google,and found these.I hope you find them as intresting as I did.

Last one's my favorite.

<3

Atheism Trend/Christianity in the Hardcore Scene

2008-09-02T18:11:00.000-07:00

Okay,so basicially this is a 2 parter,just bear with me here.I've noticed a few things in the hardcore scene,2 very obvious things,and I'd like to express my views and opinions on them.Here we go!!!!

1.This big atheism trend;
Okay,as you all know,i followed this particular trend for 2 years.I never had a real big legitiment reason to call myself an atheist,so therefore yes,I'll be the first to admit i was into a trend.You may be wondering,"how is it a trend?what do you mean?"Well,what i mean is I was going by what other people said,being fake basicially,and the real reason i stood for it for so long was because i was scared of losing friends that I made.That wasn't me,and yes,I'd like to take the oppurtunity to apologize for lying to people and hurting people around me,because a few people have specificcially told me that they we're praying their faces off for me and crying about this lifestyle i chose to follow.Now i realize alot of you are confused,maybe hurt by the current lifestyle I'm leading now.Sorry,but this is who I really am,the real me.Now,onto my opinions on what i see around me;well,a few people that i know do have legitament reasons for being an atheist,and they are able to give me real answers on why they are the way they are,but others never really have a real reason,just like i didn't have one either.So my question is,are you just following a trend?Or is this who you really are?If the hardcore scene is all about being yourself,living the way you want to live no matter what others think,then why do so many people follow this trend?Maybe for the same reasons i did,or maybe just to fit in?I for one have no clue.So,I'd like to take this oppurtunity to encourage you to really think hard about your life,and your beliefs.Be yourself,stand up for something.Have strong reasons behind what you believe and who you really are,because you only have one life to live.Don't blow it being fake just to impress someone else or because it's "the cool thing to do."That's it.

2.Christianity in the hardcore scene;
Something alot of people despise.Even when i was all "God is dead" and blah blah blah it never bothered me,so I really don't unserstand.I also thought that the hardcore scene was all about respect,unity,and acceptance no matter what,well maybe i was wrong.I think the big reason why people don't think that Christianity and hardcore shouldn't mix is because people are scared of what they don't know,which is obviously Jesus Christ.I'd also like to take this oppurtunity to encourage my fellow brothers and siters in Christ that love this as much as I do to take a stand,because I also see alot of people backing down whenever the subject is brought up.Don't compromise what you believe because you don't want to offend anyone.If I happen to offend anyone out there,oh well.This is what i believe in,and I will take a stand whenever I have to.Let's say someone is holding a gun to your head,and this person says if you love Jesus then I'm going to kill you.What would you do in that situation.Alot of people say they would die for their beliefs,but if you can't take a stand in a petty situation that'll last for like 3 seconds,how could you have the guts to take a bullet?Realize something,we're at constant war here,satan is constantly trying to rip us apart from limb to limb,and we don't have much time left on this earth,so i encourage you to take a stand.We have got to stick together in this fight,and yes i realize that we're spat upon constantly for being Christians and loving this music and this scene,but we have got to be in unity through this,Christ has brought us together,so don't give up.For what it's worth,and yes,it is worth alot,shine your light.People are dying everyday,we've got to spread His love like never before.Okay,that's it.thank you for your time.

<3

word.

2008-08-10T22:40:00.000-07:00

God's grace is so amazing,words can't describe it,for real.I'm in constant prayer that He will show me everything He would desire for me,as far as what to do,where to go,etc. etc. etc.The fish music hall is pretty amazing,I'm definitley thankful for that oppurtunity.I'm so thankful for amazing people in my life,so so so so so so thankful.It's pretty ridiculous how much God has blessed me.That is all,thank you for reading.

#3

2008-08-04T15:13:00.000-07:00

Well,target can suck it,i'm getting like 2 or 3 days a week now.It's stupid,so therefore I'm looking for a new place of employment,hopefully I'll be starting at Wachovia next month,so if you feel up to it keep me in your prayers on this situation,I would greatly appreciate it.Anddddddd,I'm going to reccomend a band to everyone,they're called The Ember Days,it's some pretty powerful stuff to say the least,straight up worship music for real,so check 'em out if you haven't yet.That is all.

Another One

2008-08-03T16:03:00.000-07:00

Last night was pretty freakin' fun,me and Dan roamed the streets of Birmingham for what seemed like forever,so it was definitley enjoyable.

Post #1

2008-08-02T13:51:00.000-07:00

First post,hooray.Just so you're all aware,I've really been enjoying Sigur Ros here lately,just thought all of you should know.That's all for now i suppose.